Do you remember that classic movie with Bill Murray, “Groundhog Day”, where he wakes up every single day, only to discover that he’s repeating the same day - over and over again?
I kinda’ feel that way - that I’m living in my own Drama Queen version of “Groundhog Day.”
Six years ago, I had sinus surgery - which was HORRENDOUS. Remember THIS post? All I remember is I felt like I had just run into a concrete wall with my FACE at 100 mph. For days. After the brutal surgery and recovery, I actually felt that the surgery was a huge success...as in, no more constant sinus infections and sinus pressure and chronic sinus pain.
Life was good, and I was SOOOOO relieved to not be living through THAT nightmare any more.
But.
I may have spoke too soon.
In the last year, I have had not one, not two, but THREE confirmed sinus infections.
THREE!!!
IN ONE YEAR!!!
Gah.
After the third infection, I wailed to the doctor, “But...but...but...!!! I CAN’T be having sinus infections! I had sinus surgery!!”
And my doctor looked at me in pity, and said very slowly, like she was speaking to a three-year old child, “Honey...sinus surgery isn’t permanent. It isn’t forever. Whatever it was that caused you to need the surgery in the first place is most likely returned.”
I looked at her in horror.
“WHAT??!!”
She said, “You’re most likely going to have to have the surgery again. It’s not that unusual.”
I seriously burst into tears at that moment. I’m not kidding. I did. I really did.
The thought of going through that torture - AGAIN - is more than I can bear...and yet...I don’t know if I can keep having sinus infections and sinus issues, especially when they crop up when I’m supposed to be getting onto a plane, and God knows you can’t fly with a sinus infection, so now I have to either cancel a trip, or drive, which sucks - and so on, and so on.
Last week, I flew back from Florida.
And then promptly was felled with a sinus infection.
WHY IS THIS MY LIFE??!!
Sigh.
So...I now have to seriously ponder the benefits (and negatives) of sinus surgery - AGAIN.
The positive: it definitely helped me breathe much easier the last few years...and no sinus headaches or pain. No earaches. Flying was amazing. I could sleep through the night without waking up, feeling like I was suffocating.
But the negatives? Intense, intense pain for about a month. And loss of taste buds. I lost most of my taste & smell after the first surgery - about 100% right after the surgery, but about 25% of that has returned. I don’t smell things - or taste food - like I used to. My palate is a joke. Cinnamon? Can’t smell it. Flowers? Can’t smell them. Skunk? Can’t smell it. Farts? Fart away - I can’t smell them. (See - I always try to find the bright side.)
What if I have the surgery - again - and lose permanently the 25% I still have?
It’s not any fun when most food & drink tastes like cardboard. Or you can’t smell a newborn baby. (Weird. I know. But it’s a mom thing.)
What do I do??!! What do I do??!!
Sigh.
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